My Personal "What the Hell?" Day
Nina SayToday I have found myself asking "What the hell?" so many times. I cannot quite put into words the way I've been feeling today, but it has been constant and I am in such a craptastic mood and I am sick of feeling down. What the hell?
Every little thing today has pissed me off... did I just wake up on the wrong side of the bed and have my emotions just blow up? Well if that is not the reason I do not know what is. My fuse has been so incredibly short today- I feel like everyone I have come into contact with has to walk on eggshells. And this might sound a little jacked... but I would not have it any other way. I am sick of feeling like nobody gives a shit what I think, and nobody respects my opinion. It has been proven over and over the past few days.
Today I really wish I had my own place. This might be one of the reasons I am so angry with the world. We have been suffering for so long... the bad economy has really raped us over the last two years. My wonderful husband finally found a job after a year of job searching. Isn't job hunting supposed to be easier when you have a degree with a specific field in mind? I know this is not true, no matter what kind of college education you have... if your community is suffering from a recession you have a long hard bumpy road in front of you when you are job hunting. I am happy that he finally has a place where we can receive a steady income. It is just the waiting to live on our own part that is taking the toll on me. I've never gotten to experience this... I am a young mother. I never lived as an adult with responsibilities until my daughter was born.
Having my own place is something I have wanted for such a long time. Is it too much to ask to have a place where it is my own and I do not have to worry about being in the way or being intrusive.
I want to have a place that is 100% my own. Private. A sanctuary.
What the hell.
Reader Comments (10)
No advice only hugs! I had a what the hell day myself! We don't have 100% sanctuary either so you are not alone!
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Sorry you're having one of those days. Me and my 2 daughters lived with family for 6 months, so I know what you're feeling. Now, my mom has lived with us for almost a year. Tomorrow's a new day. I hope it can get better for you, sooner rather than later.
I'm so sorry it's been so hard on you. It would be difficult not having a place of your own. I hope things look up for you soon and you are able to get a place.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Sending you positive thoughts.
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Thanks so much. It really is hard when you do not have a home that is 100% yours.
I think every momma deserves a sanctuary of their own.
Thank you!
Unfortunately (so embarrassing) DH and I have lived with each set of in-laws (3 all together) we have been named NPA for no permanent address.
Lovely right? LOL
Thanks so much. As simple as your comment is... hearing things like that really make me feel better. I am one of those people who just reassurance sometimes.
:)
Yeah, I definitely know how it feels. Will you be able to afford your own place anytime soon? As in - do you have an end date in sight to look forward to? I wish there was some way I could help you feel better.
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Yes, within the next 2 months we should be able to move out. We qualify for low income housing so we will be getting a really good price on a 3 bedroom apartment.
It just feels like these 2 months are going to go by so slow!
I agree it's hard not having your own place. I wish I had my own place and a job but one comes with the other I suppose lol. But ((hugs)) I'm sorry you're having a bad day.
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Thanks so much! I agree, we have been waiting so long for DH to get a job. And it is such a big relief.