I just read a post from 3KidsAndUs, and she was talking about moving into a new stage in her life… no more babies.
After reading that post it reminded me that I have been feeling the same way lately… my daughter is almost 16 months old and she is hardly my little baby girl anymore. God knows I would like to have a baby boy, you know… that perfect fantasy of having one girl and one boy. But that most definitely will not happen… my husband is way too happy with the sleep he is finally getting.
But reading Cats post really made me think hard- I think she is such a great mother, a great blogger and I feel deeply for her because I can only imagine the intense emotion she has. She has 3 kids, and that is 3 kids she has watched grow up. She said it right, she is in the next stage of her life as a parent.
Is it wrong for me to feel so bummed when I’ve only had one? Maybe the biggest part is the fact that I fear I’ll never have my little boy. Maybe as a young mother I did not be the best mother I could be for my daughter. I have my doubts about my parenting skills, and I for sure believe my husband does much more than most father his age… but that is a post for a later time.
My mind is so scrambled… but how could I not feel sad when my daughter went from this:
To this,
In what seems like a few weeks, let along 15 1/2 months.
What is a mother to do?
You’re still young and there’s definitely time! I remember feeling exactly the same way when my son was a little over a year old, except I was dreaming of having a little girl. My husband was so set on just having one child. It took nearly 6 years to convince him that our family wasn’t complete, and you know what … after our daughter was born he realized just how incomplete our family had been and wished we had her sooner. Don’t give up hope and whatever you do, don’t get rid of the baby clothes. I made that mistake and had to start from scratch. oye!
.-= Cat´s last blog ..http://3kidsandus.com/2010/guinness-book-of-world-records-laundry-award/“ rel=”nofollow”>Guinness Book of World Records – Laundry Award =-.
Nina,
I understand your feelings. They do not stay young for long. I have two boys and they are growing up before my eyes. I want a girl but not sure if that will happen. I have those days when I am filled with joy for what God has blessed me with and then on some days I long for that little girl. Like Cat said, you are still young and time is on your side.
.-= Dee@Cocktails With Mom´s last blog ..http://cocktailswithmom.com/2010/03/tyler-perrys-why-did-i-get-married-too/“ rel=”nofollow”>Tyler Perry’s Why Did I Get Married Too! =-.